my boyfriend cheated on me once and lied many time, and he have girl bestfriend that he love the most that girl actually his 5 years crush and i told him to block her but he cant, that the start when i did redioactive jealously thingy for 1 year and half i always stalk that girl and felt insecure everyday, i feel like he just love me when wee are happy but when we are fighting or i just told him what i feel he got really mad idk why i cant leave him, I’ve been suffering for 2 yrs, im so tired.